Out of Control

For those of you new around here, and there seem to be a fair few (YAY!), Saturday I usually have at least SOME fitness focus... January I started a weight loss plan, but thought once a week was adequate to address it... Today I am wishing I didn't have to address it at all, but in the spirit of accountability... There ARE though, other things to talk about... Maybe I'll give you a sneaker:



~ Are any of the rest of you getting RECRUITMENT EMAIL?

~ What the heck is HAPPENING around here?

~ Why am I suddenly spiralling out of control?







Recruitment of my BLOG



Are you freaking serious? Is this familiar to any of you? I've gotten like 4 emails in the last week asking my BLOG to participate in this or that network and it is scaring the poo out of me. I mean... they SEEM nice enough, but I'm terrified! You know WHY? 1) I don't know if they're legitimate and I don't want to give some illegitimate annoying marketing scam POWER. 2) I don't seem to have the excess mental capacity at the moment to learn something NEW. 3) I don't REALLY have time if these things TAKE time, which it sort of seems they OUGHT to if they are any good... 4) I really don't want to muck anything up... BUT I am also scared NOT TO. What if this is how to send my blog into the stratosphere and guarantee this giant force to help me out when my book comes out?



I would LOVE to hear experiences or advice about any of these. Are any of them GOOD? Is it worth the TIME? Are any of them TRAPS? HELP!





Hit Explosion



I've had my best week ever in blog hits, including a DAY that surpassed my former highest ever (the BuNoWriMo one)--but the odd thing is, I'm not really sure what happened? I have no clue WHO is now coming in... I've had a few new followers this week, but THOSE I can track—three resulted from Alex recommending me as a funny blog (Dude, I owe you!) and the other three, I THINK because of my visiting and commenting at THEIR blogs... but these HITS are way out of proportion.



Past weeks, I typically get about 3 times as many hits as visitors (because a COMMENT means two hits—one for the read and one to submit) I figure this seems pretty normal. My day with 600 hits, it was closer to 80-90 visitors... so the ratio was way off. Granted, I had a record (for me) number of comments that day. But I'm not sure if I just 'leveled' to use a video game term, or if this week was a fluke... I guess I will see.







And Now... OUT OF CONTROL



Life is a whirlwind at the moment. Kids are out of school for summer, hubby is done with his class (and excessively persnickety), WriMo is done and I am Writing my Garden Cozy... And somehow I can't seem to get my eating under control.



For the first three months of the year I did REALLY WELL. Then, since April 1, I've been steady—no more loss, but no gain... And in both cases I can identify WHY. I did WELL when I was actively counting points. I stopped counting points in April but have maintained pretty practical eating levels, with only rare splurges.



This week I couldn't seem to stop the SPLURGES. Heck, I bought POP TARTS this week at work because I convinced myself I was starving. POPTARTS are not the answer! Neither are potato chips! Hubby didn't help the matter AT ALL. Our dinners were... a few things that are fine once or twice a week, and a few things that are only fine once in a blue moon (pizza, nachos), but 5 of the last 7 nights, dinner has been beef based. Beef, in and of itself isn't awful, but probably 2-3 nights ought to be the limit. MY PROBLEM THOUGH is because it is higher in fat and calories, it is double the points per ounce, so REALLY messes with the 'plan' or else leaves me HUNGRY and I was not in the frame of mind to be HUNGRY.



The other problem is, we are pretty frugal around here, so what I take for LUNCH, is what was left over from DINNER... you can see how 5 nights of beef + pizza compounded... And then when I am feeling SORRY for myself, man-oh-man!



So the weight is up this week, and I know WHY. What I FEAR, is that on this roller coaster, I have hit the low and am on my way up. I know technically I ought to be able to pull myself back into line, but I also know my history. It frightens me. I am going to spend some time walking this morning and try to wrap my head around the psychology of it and see if I can shift where my head is. Probably what I need is a lovely lake to skinny dip in or something... that always improves my perspective. I bet these guys know where the good water is...