Doubt

(Just a brief one today. It's Sunday, and somehow I still have a lot to do, so I feel entitled)



I'm not sure if I am a masochist, or if I just didn't think things through.



I am in the process of revising the Cozy Mystery audition chapters and sent them to several members of my writer's group this week... and then there was a SHORT amount of down time (before the feedback would start coming back) so I decided it was about the right amount of time to craft a PITCH. I sent the PITCH to a handful of my ABNA friends, as they have a lot of pitch experience (much more than my writer's group, actually) and so I wanted expert advice.

The PROBLEM? Well a pitch is relatively QUICK to turn around feedback on, where chapters are a little slower, so yesterday I got a fairly solid dose of   “What the hell are you thinking?!” Okay, so EVERYONE was nicer and more encouraging than that, and feedback is productive, but I seem to have scheduled myself for an unintentional overdose.



And then there is the fact that the recommended changes NEVER go together all that well, so I step back and try to see what is what, and usually decide (in my infinite madness) that if one person thinks THIS, and another thinks THAT, then maybe this THIRD thing would please both of them! I get all excited and try it and it ALWAYS pleases NEITHER—ACK! I just need to decide WHO seems to share my vision, eh?



At the moment I am feeling like I have missed it right and left and have no talent whatsoever, so I am headed out for a power walk to get the juices flowing, and then I will get to my date with my cozy chapters and hopefully address the spirit and specifics of what the editor wanted changed.



Only way past it sometimes is working THROUGH it, eh?